I miss you

Everyday I wake up I miss you I have to convince myself every morning why you haven't called is because again there is someone else. I can't take the heartache I am feeling right now I miss you alot. I miss at least talking to you not the fighting not the wishing you would call for days at a time and not seeing you for days at a time. I just miss the guy I fell in love with what happened to us. I need you to be mine not everyone elses. I have to realize you never loved me i was just convenient for you. I love you. I wish things could be different. Zaiden misses you so much your all he talks about and how daddy this daddy that.