I hope you read this

I hope you read this!! I have been in love with you for so long have let you do many unthinkable things to me and never left. I have loyalty I have lots of hope. My faith has brought me through many of our challenges and here we are today just 3 weeks after our trip and your gone again.. oh yes I feel used and more hurt now then I have been sine last year when I thought it was over for good and never thought we would start talking and making love again.. I needed you more than anything and at my worst you were never there and if you were you added to putting me down. Did you think I was going to fall for the fact your friends didn't want me around when the truth was you were with someone else. Did you think I wasn't going to wake up to your games when you never have a weekend to see me but are supposedly moving your friend for the 3 time this month!! Come on how long did you think you were going to do this to me? I just want you to realize a few things especially when we went to California you knew the whole time you were going to make it miserable and all about you not me or my boys.. It was never romantic it was never fun and I wanted it to be so much more and looking back what a waste on someone I love and didn't love me back.. I know its wake the hell up Kiley.. He doesn't want you like you want him he wants his cake and eat it to. Well my love I am letting go she can have you she deserve to be cheated on she deserves to stay with a man that has no heart for her. I just needed you to know your losing someone that loved you more than life and I forgave you and kept giving you chances when you thought I was just easy to bully around.. I hope your around when your daughters face these issues because of you they will.. I have to say goodbye and I love you!!