to see you again

I thought my heart was going to go crazy when I finally saw but I couldn't your not him anymore your not the person I fell in love with. Your different and I know now If you were to try to to date me again this time I would walk away but only because I am smarter now and know I want to be loved not the side chick I have been for way too long.. I know in my heart even more now how much you love our son.. Funny how you want to look like him. Hes cute your just old with nothing to you. I hate feeling like this cuz my heart says I still love him I still want him but hes never been mine hes being with different people that why he doesnt call. So enough said this is what you wanted and maybe if not and you really doubted my love you should've really tried than you would've known how much I loved you and wanted to be with you. Now I am moving on and the hard part is letting go of all the would if's and could'ves because this is what you wanted me to let go so you can have your cake and eat it to. I don't know you anymore I wish I still had the Steve I met but he was gone the day he hit me and left me to hurt. I wish I couldve seen it coming the end of us. I wish you the best no il feelings towards you or your family you and I will have to meet our maker one day and ansWer for everything we have done I hope God shows you the love I had for you and makes you feel what I felt in some way. Love always your sons mom.